Turning Point

My life is simple and I considered myself as a happy go lucky guy. I only think for myself (quite selfish huh) and I wanted to fulfill my own dreams, but I'm not exerting effort to fulfill my dreams and goals in life. Because for me, I believe that everything will be achieve in the right time and the same principle goes on looking for a partner in life. I thought in a while that I was right on the things I believe in but I was totally wrong. The second and third week of July was a life changing experienced, I did have a chance to have a glimpse on what it might be if things happen this and that way. Sounds serious huh?

The glimpse I had made me realized that I should start working on my dreams and exert more effort to achieve it. I know fully understand why my sisters and brother likes me to go abroad and work. I think its quite obvious that they want me to be financially stable and I thought in awhile that my current salary could give me a better life. Yes, I'm living a better life with my current salary and doing a little responsibility at home on paying the bills. But this scenario is only for the current situation in my life, because again I believe in the saying we should live one day at a time. Again, I'm wrong because I forget to save for the rainy days.

The glimpse I had made me realized that I'm not ready in many things that I want to happen in my life. It's somehow a wake-up call for me that I should start thinking on how will I live my life and its purpose (sounds like the book "The purpose driven life'). Going back to the right time, how will we know whether its the right time or not? I think there is no such thing as right time, for me its a matter on how ready are you if a certain situation that is unexpected has come. Then I tried to question myself once more, how will I know if I'm ready or not? I guess a decision is to be made and to work on the outcome of its decision.

I felt sad and sorry for myself that I'm doing nothing to achieve my goals in my life. I realized that I should start working with my goals in life if I want to live my life to fullest. I guess its the end of being a happy go lucky guy and start working on something worthwhile and meaningful in my life.

I don't know if this is a sign of old age or I'm getting matured, but one thing I'm sure I was given a glimpse on what might happen to me if I don't plan on how will I live my life.

Pathway, Rocky, Thorn and Rich

Last Friday (July 27) I did go to church to hear mass and I was kinda touch with the gospel of the parable of the sower. The gospel was taken from the book of Mt. 13:18-23

Jesus said to his disciples:
"Hear the parable of the sower. The seed sown on the path is the one who hears the word of the Kingdom without understanding it, and the Evil One comes and steals away was was sown in his heart.

The seed sown on rocky ground is the one who hears the word and receives it at once with joy. But he has no root and lasts only for a time. When some tribulation or prosecution comes because of the word, he immediately falls away.

The seed sown among thorns is the one who hears the word, but then wordly anxiety and the lure of riches choke the word and it bears no fruit.

But the seed sown on the rich soil is the one who hears the word and understands it, who indeed bears fruit and yields a hundred or sixty or thirtyfold."

The priest then site on examples

1. Pathway - are those people who listen/hears the word of God but they choose to take for granted by letting it pass to the other ears end
2. Rocky ground - are those people who listen/hears the word of God and recognize it with joy and praise God. But when trails comes in life, they try to asked God why they have to sacrifice and chooses not to listen/hears the word of God anymore
3. Thorns - are those people who listen/hears the word of God, but they are over attach in materialistic things in this world, that would cause to bargain spending time with God
4. Rich soil - are those people who listen/hears the word of God, even trials were given they still remain faithful to God and have the perseverance to listen/hear the word of God

Reflecting on the gospel made me realized that I've gone through the three types of seed to be sown: pathway, rocky ground and thorns. I find the rich soil as a daily struggle to have the perseverance to be constantly faithful to God.